Brain Elasticity

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It's funny just how plastic your brain can be, how much your personality can change, and how your never the same person at any given moment.

    Since I started college, I've had to pull every trick in the book to succeed as an engineering student. I've learned a lot about myself, my beliefs, my strengths and weaknesses. I've also learned how to break through the fog of my self-justifications and be honest with myself, which is one of the hardest things to do in my opinion. I've learned how to be blunt with myself.

    As a kid, I've been beaten, kidnapped (yes, kidnapped lol), humiliated, and messed with in so many ways. But that doesn't mean I'm going to treat other people or the world the same way. That doesn't justify me if I were to behave the same way, which I don't. I work hard for a good job because of the security it allows me to give to my loved ones, and when I have a kid they will not experience any of the things my own parents and others visited upon me.

    It all comes down to this: Are you right behaving the way you are, or are you behaving the way you are because you 'think' your right?
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My situation as a small child was similar - until I met my permanent family. Since then there were trials, and at first I was very upset and traumatized, but with parents that never gave up I learned how to work with my problems and eventually master them. Since then my life has been a blessing all the way - despite the petty little problems such as teasing and such. Now I'm one of the most confident people I know - and most of the things that life throws at me rolls off my back. I don't feel like I'm invincible or anything - just happy that my life is as good as it is. People notice how confident I am and for some reason everyone around me supports me. If it weren't for Christianity (and yes, the values of that religion is directly involved) I would not be here. No, I would probably be in your shoes, if not worse.

I'm not perfect; I'm pampered. Aghanemnon, I can see you are headed on a path to dawn. Don't ever doubt yourself, not even for a second, for it is those times that the world can take advantage of you. Be confident but careful. Be spontaneous and planning. Be strong and be wise. Work hard and have fun. Enjoy life to the fullest, but don't push yourself too hard.

I hope and pray for the best for you and everyone in your situation. I've seen the pain of neglect and abuse of the world as a small child and had been pulled out of it before it scarred me, if not worse. I know the pain of feeling alone in the world, and the torture of loosing family and friends. I know the shock of watching others as they fall, and the remorse of slipping myself. I've seen the effects of hatred and greed, and probably I've been taken advantage of once or twice. I know the frustration of being marked down with handicaps that make me feel dumb. The world can be so cruel and dark, yet somehow I was able to find the light. Oh, how fragile my psyche used to be!

Here and now, I know what I hope to be for everyone else, even if it kills me in the end -- A hero. An honest to goodness hero that doesn't care about the fame or the fortune of doing so. I know that the world is a dark place and one day I hope to shine a light on those who are lost in the dark. I want to pull people out of the pit of despair and get them back on their feet. I want to be the one to defend those who can't defend themselves. I want to show love to the love deprived, a laugh to the saddened, a joy to those lost in limbo.

It is not my idea to butt heads with anyone to do this, but if I must, I must be victorious. Both for my sake... and for everyone else's.

For me, my behavior is that of trying to become as close to right as possible. No one is ever right, and I know I still am not right as well. The one who is IN the right (but isn't right itself) is the one who is trying to get better. There is only one perfect model to base ourselves upon, and whether or not you choose believe me I say it's God. You can disagree if you want, but you'll never know whether or not you're right unless you take the plunge and read the book.